Whether you are single and looking to mingle or already paired and just a voyeur seeking to take a sneak peak, this is a memoir of sorts of me sparking the flames of destiny just once more. If you know who I am that is because you were there when I was. If you don’t, that’s fine, I am here to reintroduce myself. I am Ms. Phoenix Rising. I am a kink enthusiast and lifestyle femdom. I have practiced professionally but for now am on a hiatus. I am more into weaving this into my lifestyle so that I may receive some satisfaction. No, I am not seeking subs or slaves. I am here as I said to spark the flames of an old love interest.

I am not sure how to go about this but it is something so deep inside me that I will not be happy about if I don’t express it organically. It has been wearing on my heart and soul for years as I have tried to be a different person so that I could be looked at differently. But that is not me. That life is not what I want.
I do not want a picket fence and a dog and a house and a husband and a family. God knows I wish I did. But that is not who I have ever wanted to be and it is ultimately not who I am so I won’t pretend. And it actually pains me because I will mourn that version of life I won’t get to live. But time is running out and it is do or die.

This is not a time for explanations, for you will see. I am an exhibitionist and I like parts of me to be seen. Sometimes the most intimate of parts too. I like to be looked at deeply. Like, notice me. But not like, I need attention but no; if you happen to pass by take a peak, inquire within and have a quick look. I am not the star of the show but you will not forget about me. Let me expose parts of myself to you. Let me be naked as long as I am happy with that part of me being seen by you. It feels good, honestly, to not have to hide parts of one’s self. That is the deepest level of intimacy and it is not often felt with other people. You feel it within yourself. There were times when the the most passionate moments of my life were on a stage being looked at, while I was in pure bliss. I was an exotic dancer. Most of the time I loved it there.

Perhaps that is why I am here. Seeking an intimacy lost between me and myself and my most passionate of moments but I no longer want to experience this alone with myself. But, many men are afraid of intimacy unless they can have it from the comfort of a screen. Tis a pity then that I like men because the intimacy and deepness I want comes from them. But I am not easy.
I am not seeking a husband as I do not come here to offer a commitment. I am not rejecting one but I am definitely not offering it either. I cannot explain why that is. Don’t pressure me for it neither. Accept my openness and willingness to be vulnerable completely. My bravery to expose my soul completely because after much reflection this is just who I am. And while I may never be his wife, I take pleasure in being the muse that stokes the flames of his fire.

Join me in sparking the flames of a fire that wildly still burns deep within me. Ms. Phoenix Rising still is… and always will be.